the once in a month emotional break-down

i try not to get upset or sad in my life because i know i have a lot of things to be thankful for. but i also know that nothing is perfect and sometimes, having such feelings is only normal and somewhat inevitable. i think the important thing is knowing how to pick yourself up again after you have a good cry. knowing that you will be okay, even though it hurts sometimes. and knowing that there are many other good things that are happening in your life right now.

i had one of these moments recently. it was probably due to the fact that i was pms-ing and it kinda just blew everything out of proportions, like it always does. but i had a good cry about it, listened to some really sad emotional songs.. and even though it still is at the back of my mind as i type this, i'm not gonna let it affect me much longer than it already has.

hate march

This month was so hard for me. There are many temptations that come up to me, it feels like it is very difficult for me. they come one by one and started gnawing on my mind. I'm not strong, but I must be strong. I'm not brave, but I have to do it. I have to focus the national final exams and I have to plan further my education. I lost my blackberry phone and some important data in it. I did not get approval from my mother to enter flight school. I ran out of words to describe my feelings at this time. But I believe, all the disasters and trials must have the wisdom behind it. The most appropriate sentence for me: learn from the past, move on, grow stronger.

it's a fact

 

everyone has different experiences during their time in high school.. some good, some bad. as for me, i wouldn't complain about mine. it wasn't perfect but if i were ever to go back in time, i would do things the different.. but i don't regret anything at all.

how was your time in high school like..? was it something memorable or was it something you want to completely forget?

as for those who are still high schoolers, i would only suggest one thing and one thing only.... enjoy it while it lasts! cause you'll never experience anything like it anymore after you graduate.

another version

an old drawing but i've just recently colored it in.

morning gorgeous

i think it's important to start mornings positively. no matter how you're feeling from last night, just start it fresh and it will get better throughout the day. and you should never vent anything to anyone in the morning cause that will just ruin the rest of their day.

Bad Connection

i think i'm having problems with the internet. sometimes the websites load, sometimes it doesn't.. i'm not sure why either. i hate it when these kind of things happens. makes me feel really lazy to do any work. plus it kinda shows that maybe i'm not supposed to be doing my work.. or maybe that's just me who thinks it that way.

Feeling So Lazy

feeling so freaking sleepy it's not funny. i think i have figured it out.. in order to wake up in a refreshing manner every morning, i must go to bed at 9.30 the latest.

Sunday Morning

i still have lots of homework to do..

one thing i realize.. i browse the internet way too much. it's not good when you're doing homework because believe it or not, there are alot of distractions.... *coughfacebookcough* i always have the tendency to open up more than one tab in a window as well cause i hate waiting for a page to load but i guess that's an excuse. should really learn to just stick with what i have to do instead of what i want to do priorities.

i hope to have a family and home like this someday.

hanya sebuah titik dua dan sebuah kurung tutup

Have you ever known someone who had a major influence on you, even too big?

Special someone can overturn your mood in an instant. He can make you're in the mood to be silent and bend happy face in the blink of course. Simply put, when he smiled I smiled more. But when she pouted, whatever my mood, my face became wrinkled spontaneous.

Ah, is this an addiction? You always make me worry. Worry if you go, my smile will depend on who else smile?

have you ever noticed that your influence is so great for me? When I'm disappointed, upset, even angry, one could develop my smile smile knot buried deep in the heart of darkness.

Unfortunately, it's easy once you line my lips curl upwards or downwards. You just select. So I beg you, keep smiling, to me, with me.

Although only a colon and a closing parenthesis :)